In the Waiting

Today we all woke up to these gorgeous, huge, looming clouds in the sky, blues, grays and whites all contrasting against the another.  My son was so energized by the change in weather that he ran out into the backyard and began crowing like Peter Pan, running around the fire pit, jumping in the small drops of rain that fell for about two minutes.  (And now our neighbors are joining us in prayer that we sell our house, because it was 7:15 in the morning;-)  Thank you, son.

Something has shifted.

I feel like the Lord is doing things unseen regarding our house selling, the rental we will need and the property  and house we want to build.  We may or may not actually see those shifts in the physical today, but I just know in faith he is moving things on our behalf, behind the scenes.

It’s felt like a long wait.  But in the process, the Lord has been purifying our hearts and minds.  Waiting is not usually something I enjoy in the moment, but I am grateful for it in the end.  I am so grateful for God’s perfect timing, even though it is not my perfect timing.  If I were running my world, it would look so different, and boring and easy and simple and I’d probably still be very, very selfish.  I don’t want to live in my world, as much as my flesh wants it easy, my soul wants more.

Hebrews 12:6

“For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and chastises every son whom he receives.”

Not that waiting is necessarily discipline in the way that we think of discipline, but I think biblical discipline looks more like training for an athletic event and less of a punishment for no reason.  We have to train our bodies, put in the sweat, pain and uncomfortableness to be ready for the event and be successful.

1 Corinthians 9:27

“I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.”

It’s uncomfortable, but training will change us if we allow it.

Davin and I have grown loads in this season of waiting.  Have there been parts where we’ve wanted to grasp at control and change everything?  Yes.  Have we acted just like the Israelites in the desert at times?  Yes.  We are certainly not perfect, but God is growing and changing us to be more and more like him and he is faithful when we are not.

So, perhaps you’re in a season of waiting.  In a holding pattern, wondering how long this must go on.  Ask to see God where he is in all of it.  Because he’s not against you, holding you back.  When you bow your head in prayer to God, Jesus stands at your back with both of his strong hands on your shoulders, pouring his love and strength into you, interceding before the Father on your behalf.

He is for you, not against you.

Thank goodness God does not sign us up for a Spartan Race in high altitude, and not train us.  I personally would FAIL so hard right now if I had to complete that race.  I’m sure I could finish it, but it might nearly exhaust all of me, and I certainly wouldn’t win.  I wouldn’t feel victorious in the same way I would had I trained for it.

God has amazing adventures for us.  He’s setting us up to do our best, not walk away feeling like we could have done better if we’d only trained.

Hebrews 12:11

“No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”

He allows us to experience the pain of discipline, the pain of training for a reason.

He is always good.

His timing is always perfect.

He is always on your side.

So even though our house has not sold, we have no offers and everything looks like it’s been a huge fail, I still have faith that God is doing something bigger than what my eyes can see.

Hebrews 11:1

“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see.”

With his grace, I stand in hope that he has something better than I had imagined.  He is too good not to believe that.

As always, thanks for reading!